Kiss My Fat Ass- Tyra Banks

Ugh!!! I am so tired of being overweight!!! I have no excuses anymore! This is it for me! Good bye Big Mac!!! Good bye chips and coke!!! mmmmm coke!!! *SNAP OUT OF IT*
So in attempt to get rid of my huge ghetto ass I have decided to try to follow the body for life diet, of course with some tweeks because I am breastfeeding. So I will eat 6 times a day. Each time I eat I will chow down on a protein and a carb.
Here is my meal plan for tomorrow as an example:
Breaky will consist of 2 hard boiled eggs and a 1 piece of whole grain toast.
Snack one will be 3 small turkey pepperoni sticks and an orange
Lunch will be a whole grain wrap filled with lettuce, cucumbers, 2 1/2 small pieces of smoked turkey breast and a small portion of cheese, mustard, a TINY little bit of mayo. On the side I am gonna have some veggies including tomatoes, mushrooms and cucumbers
Snack two will be 3 light babybell cheeses and a banana
Snack three will be some almonds and some caramel rice cakes
Dinner (depending on if I am at home) will probably be trout, a salad, and a cup of wild rice
And of course I will be consuming with at least 8 glasses of water, some will have lemon wedges in them. Water and milk will be the only things that I will be drinking.
The plan is to eat roughly every 2-2.5 hours. I will not eat later than 7:30 pm. I will eat breakfast daily. (which is gonna be a huge challenge!!!) I know it totally seems like tons of food!!! At least I will not be hungry!!! Sundays will be a cheat day where, if I choose I can eat or drink whatever I please.
My mom, my sister and I have a weekly $5.00 wager going on. The biggest loser of the weigh in on Mondays will win the pot. So that's kind of the idea. Ideally I want to lose 81 pounds before this is all over. (The wager goes on for 12 weeks but I am going to work on it until I reach my goal)
I want to set an example for Olivia so that she can lead a healthy lifestyle. Jake has decided to be more active also.

Speaking of Olivia...
I have taken her swimming and she seems to love it. She is totally a water baby! She loves it. If she is cranky I just put her in the bath and she loves it! I have taken her to the zoo also twice. I love spending those moments with her. I am so worried about going back to work because I want to be able to continue doing these things with her.
She is rolling over like crazy now and is trying to scoot around. She giggles all the time too. It's adorable. She is eating baby food now too once a day.
She has tried a little pear juice also. She's not a huge fan of it. So far she has tried pears, carrots, peas, bananas, and apple sauce. Her favorite by far are carrots!!! She is an awesome eater! Pears was her first food and she really had no idea what was going on. It was super cute.
Anyways on that note, I better get going to bed. 8 am comes early!!!
Goodnight!!!
-x0x0 Momma Nicole

“Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.” Elizabeth Stone

Well it has been a pretty long time since I posted last. To be quite honest I haven't had a whole heck of a lot of time between taking care of Olivia and trying to catch up with the household from when I was sick. Tons has happened since I last posted so I figured that it may be nice to bring this up to date.
Olivia is 4.5 months now. She is quickly growing and developing. She has learned to really giggle which melts my heart every time she does it and makes me laugh. She finds the littlest things so funny like shaking a paper in her face or blowing raspberries. Why is it that as we grow older do we become more complex and need more to satisfy our hunger? Why can we not just find amusement in simple things like bubbles and side walk chalk anymore? Having a little one has really brought me back. I love playing with her or singing to her (God help her!!!) and I really don't care who is around to watch me act like a fool. I could be in the middle of a store singing to her and it feels like it's just her and I.
Yesterday she started to growl. She was grumbling before and so Jake decided to start growling at her. She thinks it's funny and yesterday when the nurse was taking her weight she growled at her and has been doing it ever since. It's hilarious!
She has also rolled over and she has tried solid foods. Her first food was pears. She has discovered her feet and it's almost like everyday she's doing something new for the first time.
We went swimming for the first time yesterday. She had so much fun. I am really looking forward to the summer so I can take her to do things outside like go to the park and to the zoo.
She has had her first cold too which was so sad but she only had it for 2 days. I know this sounds crazy but it kind of made me feel like a great mommy. I took total care of her and then looked up if there was anything else that I could do for her so that she would feel better. I had already done everything I could have done. Way to go me!!! :)
Anyways I will be writing more later until then I'm signing off!!!
-xoxo Momma Nicole

God sends children to enlarge our hearts, and make us unselfish and full of kindly sympathies and affections. -- Mary Howitt

Olivia got her shots a week or so ago. I really honestly believe that I was more nervous than she was. I was so worried that she would resent me or something which I know is ridiculous but as a mother it has to be one of the things I fear the most.
I think the anticipation was worse for me than the shot itself. We went into the office. Late as usual. I had to get one of my shots too- which may I add hurt and bruised me. Anyways Jake was holding her while the nurse pulled out the needle. I had to turn my back at first and out of nowhere I felt as though I was going to pass out. I became dizzy, hot then cold and nauseous to boot. I had to get out of there. I ran out of the room to stand outside the door and wait for the cry that was inevitable.
And then it happened. I stood out there for a moment or two longer just to make sure all 3 needles were given and just as I was about to burst in the room because I couldn't take it any longer the nurse opened the door and invited me back in.
I saw my baby, legs exposed with a tiny bit of blood on them. Tears rolling down her cheeks. Jake was bouncing her on his lap, this is something that usually calms her. I reached for her grabbed her and quickly started to feed her. At that point I could have cared less who was in the room, I quite literally whipped out my boob and started to feed her to calm her down. (I made sure she was a little hungry before we went in so this was an option after the shot.) She slept well for the night and the next day also. No reaction really... just really tired and sore.
Just to end on a funnier note, Olivia and I play a game where she flies through the air like a jet plane or in this case a space ship... well it just so happens that during that game today she decided to barf... all over my face and hair... EWWWWW! I thought it was the funniest thing!!! I was really grossed out but it was funny none the less!!! God I love that little girl!!!
-xoxo Momma Nicole

Perfect parents are only in old TV reruns- Dee Ann Stewart

Olivia is constantly scratching her face. It drives me mental. I have had a phobia of cutting her nails since she was born, and up until today had only done it once. Cutting her nails this morning led to me feeling like such a terrible mother. I was cutting her pointer finger and I cut it. Like I swear to you I almost cut the tip off (or so it felt like after.) She cried and my first thought was that I was being over dramatic. I didn't realize just how bad it was until I saw her bleed. I just thought I may just have pinched a little bit of her skin. Nope. It was quite a bit. Needless to say I feel awful, I am completely traumatized and I can only hope it doesn't sting anymore.
To add insult to injury for my poor little girl, she is getting her shots on Wednesday too. I am sure she will think I hate her by the end of the week!!!
Needless to say this phobia I had has not got any better. I am way more terrified now than I was before and I think I will stick to filing her little claws for a little while!
-xoxo Momma Nicole

*note the pic taken above was not taken today- I am not that mean of a mommy to take it when shes in physical pain!!! :)